I am so sorry everyone it has been so long since I have writen. So much is going on. The military gave me very little time to do a lot of big things that cost a lot and take help. Hard to do without my other half, or more money. I did buy a beautiful new couch which we desperately needed. Its stone coloured and microsuede. But unfortunately teh stress is cathcing up with Chadd and I. We are on teh phone yelling and srguing and thinking somehow this will make itwork faster. I may hav eto tak emy car to New Jersey to be sjhippe dout and that is over 12 hours away impossible to do so i am trying to se eif teher is aproram in teh army up here for driving teh vechicles out there... who knows. The dogs had to have all kind of blood tests and shots and etc. I even had to go see teh doctor and teh gyno even its so stupid but it get sme there. He yells b/c he is frustred to get me there and it is stressful i feel badf for him but we are wporkinga bit against each other this way as well.
I have to be creful aall this stress is making em hungry i have brokenmy diet more times thani car etocount and it kills me b/c my weight is ahuge fluxation and i have worked to hard to eb where i am how could i screw this up!!!??
ug i am just angry ihate being away from my darlin i hate agruing an di hat ethis stress and so forth and i hate being whiny but i don't wanna.. lol I hat ehow outr of control i feel right now but after this week i will know more on teh situation at hand.
My in laws have been great and helpful;. My brother and father in law brought all my things from Portland up to bangor which for them fromNH is a 5 hour ride!!! so its been great. I had an ok valentines alone!!! oh well imust go and do more paper work i will write tomorrow i promise!! lol